Friday, November 12, 2010

Beauty

   I have spent so many nights  wandering the woods.  The night time world  forsaken by those who are afraid of what they do not understand.   Often I encounter  that fear.    Often  this fear is expressed by the person afraid  very viciously.   They do not understand something and afraid to learn or to change their mind they attack  it with name calling and jokes and peer pressure.    Yet  life is a journey, a path of steps and decisions  and encounters.  We all know where we begin  and we all know how the mortal journey ends. So why fear it  or fear anything along the way?   Were I to step outside tonight and wander the woods I may die.  I can minimize this with some precaution  or course  a knife or two and a side arm  just to be safe  for  sure there are creatures out there  that are dangerous.     But why be afraid?   If I were to die tonight my mortal journey ends yes  but it would end my way  on my terms  experiencing all the wonder and diversity and greatness that God has provided for us to explore.  
  
   And what of beauty.  It is so much more then the superficial thing in which we seem to place so much value.    I have stared deep into the soul of many a beautiful woman  only to  see  turmoil,  and filth, and the ashes of  virtue that never had a chance to take hold.   That is not beauty,   I have stared into the soul of a new born babe  and seen the promise of the future and the wonder of all the new things they are experiencing.      
    
     Is beauty an emotional thing.    The appreciation of it  is most definitely emotionally full filling  but  I believe  it to be an intellectual soulful  thought process that  comes to that appreciation.   To many times we make choices and decisions  based upon our emotions and then have to use our intellect  to dig ourselves out of the problems that decision making process always causes.  Instead  were we to use our minds to think, our eyes to see,  our ears to listen  and make our decisions based upon  that intellect  and then gain the emotional appreciation of a well made choice and a life  more free of the burdens  of  the bad choices. 


Certainly I have made more then a few bad choices myself.  Admittedly some of these choices led down paths that taught me many things worth knowing.   But in retrospect I suspect  these things could have been learned with less pain. 


  So beauty can be found  in many ways and along many paths  we should never be afraid to try and experience it  yet  we should with wisdom make that experience with a sound mind so that we can take in all this universe has for our mortal existence  with out dragging our own baggage on every step of the journey.  


Beauty can come when you open your mind to it and  expand your repertoire  to understand. Today you may find a rose to be beautiful   and yet  when you look deeper  you  can see the complexity of just one leaf on that rose and find beauty in the magnificent design that causes that leaf to serve that plant.  Ask the questions  seek the answers. Broaden your scope   from small to large  from one leaf to a whole bush with an entire system of bacteria and insects and  energy transfers.   From roots to flower to seed to roots. 


 I often find my work to be beautiful.  The precision, the creating of  something both aesthetically and dimensionally perfect  from every chamfer to every diameter.  From the smooth shine of the surface finish to the overall product a study of form and function.  


We need to take time to  think and appreciate beauty,  Our lives are far far to short in the mortal span of existence to overlook things or to pass them by from fear.   This does not mean we need to take time away from what we are doing.  Rather we should open our eyes while we are doing it  perhaps that means setting down the smart phone   or  turning down the radio  or  shutting out all the worries in the back of our mind  while we are working  to spend just a little time  appreciating just what we are doing right there in front of us.  

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Halloween Ghosts Possession . . .Demons

  Ok  Tis the season right?   Halloween  ghosts goblins  ghouls all the creepy crawlies that make your skin tingle.   Lately I've been enjoying watching the many new TV shows on the paranormal for a lot of reasons.  For one I had several encounters myself  in  my dark past  and  I  am one of those people  that has to explore the things that scare him  until they no longer scare him.    This has led me on a 10 year journey into what these experiences are.   That leads me to the second reason this journey has led me into the study of the angelic conflict and of demons in particular. So  in this post I want to shed some light into the darkness and put names to the shadows.   The information I am conveying  can be found in evidence throughout history and from the bible  and  from accounts from various missionaries throughout the world.    

  Since it is Halloween  I am going to focus on  the the most numerous activity and I am going to offer advice somewhat contrary to what you are going to see on these  TV shows.   They are trained scientific professionals and  are unknowingly protected by the "Rules"  to which these creatures are currently contained.  

   In haunting and in demon possession   there are two main culprits.  Satan's  front line troops, so to speak. They are just two classes of many classes which cover a wide range of human affairs and some of these are also involved in haunting and possessions but they aren't doing the flashy stuff.  
    The first the OV (transliterated from the Hebrew)  or  the   εγγαστρυμυτηος or (eggastrumuthos in the Greek) demon is the  most common  demon in the fallen angel army   they are voice demons.    They  can manipulate the vocal cords of a possessed person  and produce  language, information,.  They are also the source of all the moans  and whispers and voices   in a haunted house.   They are most notably mentioned in history in possessed persons  as   Mediums, Psychics,  Wizards, Witches, Necromancers,   any  person who says they can  contact the dead.   This is their primary game and  it is often why they haunt houses   to draw in  a new person to inhabit or to play the game of  getting a medium to "cross the spirit over"    but often there is one  OV demon in the medium and another in the house and they are pulling the wool over your eyes  often to the profit of the medium.   They are actually a source of  somewhat reliable information about the past  as  they actually were there to witness it    often  people possessed can recant ancient  long dead languages  and speak about ancient kingdoms with vivid detail .   This  is where scholars believe Homer  got his information for the Iliad and the Odyssey (this goes into other tangents of demonology that I am not going into that right now.)   Historic examples of this demon in action are as follows. 

   The Witch of Endor   - - -   Saul contacts her to  contact Samuel for advice.   1 Samuel  28:3  

   The Oracle of Delphi   - - -   often spoken of in most Greek  literature  as a source of  supernatural advice and the will of the gods. 

   The Egyptian priests of  Sokar, Khentiamentu, and Anubis,  - - - Spoken of in Exodus and  in Egyptian history.  

    The Possessed Man  in Mark 5:1  

To review  this demon is associated with  the vast majority of supernatural and paranormal VOICE  activity.  



  The second demon I am going to cover  is the Puppeteer demon . . . not named specifically  in scripture as it is less pervasive and less dangerous to the will of man and to history.   The Puppeteer  demon is the creature associated with  moving people and things..   In a possessed individual  this is the demon that will move the persons arms legs  move him around  lift them off the ground. grant the possessed person abnormal strength and speed.     Also called the Telekinesis Demon  they are the ones responsible  for  opening and closing doors. .  footsteps ,  throwing  things   levitating  people or objects.   All things being moved  are  part of this  demons  stock in trade.      

     Examples of this demon  are as follows. 
 
      The demons messing with the bones of  Moses.- - -in the book of Jude  there is an account  of the Archangel Gabriel being sent to take the bones of  Moses and to rebuke the demons messing with them

      The possessed Man in Mark 5:1 the account of the man says that he could not be contained  (possessing abnormal strength.) 



So  if  you encounter these  activities   you now know what is doing them.     All  classes of demon  (and angels for that matter) are called  Nagash  (transliterated from the Hebrew)   which means Light bodies  or Stars.    Both classes are capable of  making shadows  and manipulating light. though I suspect  the Puppeteer demon does this the most.   So shadow figures, apparitions, ghosts. mists,   this is the activity  to which I'm referring.  



    Now  that you have this information what do you do with it . . . . This is where I diverge from  the popular TV shows.   These demons  DO NOT have to muster up energy to make things happen. .  They are playing with the investigator  as far and  as much as they can.   They   Don't want the general public to get to much information from them  it dilutes the effect and takes away from the fear factor.   THESE ARE VERY POWERFUL BEINGS.     Do not  interact with them.  Do Not engage in conversation with them.  This is what they want  they are waiting for a stoned  or  weak willed individual   to get in a conversation and entice into possession  this is their main game.      This is very important   if you attract their attention  they can follow you   if you antagonize them  and you are a christian  they can  petition to God to hurt or Kill you  if  you  have sin in your life and are  under discipline.   King David  prayed  to God   and asked God to not let Satan have him. .  The book of Job is all about  Satan petitioning  God to hurt a human.  So they can hurt you  They can Kill you.   Do Not  go looking for trouble, don't  get on their radar.    This is the best advice I can give. Also  although it is their main trick and act  these spirits are not the restless dead  nor are they from "The Other Side"   there is no other side  these beings exist in our reality  just like we do  they just do so  out of our visible range.  Only God can resurrect  or  bring the dead  back to the material world   demons do not have that power though they try to mimic it every chance they get.   

Now  having said this  there are occasions when you have no choice  but to interact with these creatures. .   You buy a home  that's haunted. . . You come across a gathering in the woods and one or more of the people is Possessed.    You come across a car accident and  the accident victim appears to be possessed (if not  under the influence)      What do you do in this situation.   Here is the information from the bible and from first hand accounts from missionary's  I know and have read about.     


         Step one . . . Step away  and take a breath.     Pray to the Father and confess any and all known sins in your life    this is very important never  ever EVER confront a demon with sin in your life.   Use 1 John 1:9 and confess your sins   get  in fellowship. 

      Step two  . . .. in prayer silently to the Father  claim one of the promises of God in the scripture that allows you to exorcise demons.  Luke 9:1, Matthew 10:1  Mark 16:17 Acts 16:18  and 19:12-13  pray for courage.  The instant you claim one of these promises  a battalion of guardian angels was dispatched to your location and  they and the power of Christ as sovereign of the universe  is going to be doing this work not you  you are just a vessel for that power and a witness and testimony to any bystanders.   Always approach this from humility arrogance or self righteousness in this situation  will get you killed.  

      Step three . . . Approach the person or enter the building. .   Be bold  Fear is a sin and it is also going to make you freeze when you need to fight.    Also if there are bystanders  your boldness will be a testament and a witness unto them that  the power of your God is mightier then theirs.   Be Bold but be Humble  your confidence is in the Lord   not in yourself.    

    Step four . . .. . Claim the promise  out loud  Say something to effect of "Lord  you have promised that in your name we may expel or exorcise demons.    You can quote a verse  whatever  you think you need to help you build courage and   this time you are being a testimony  to all of the Angelic community which will be watching  this confrontation with interest.  Your claiming doctrine  out loud  will be a victory cheered by angels and a defeat  scorned by fallen angels.   

 Step five  . . . . Issue  the command  quoted by Paul in Acts 16:18  or a paraphrase that fits the situation  (IE I command you Demon (or demons)  In the name of the LORD JESUS CHRIST  to leave  the  person or the  building. . . .       

That's it  no  hocus pocus   in fact you probably wont see or hear anything  at all  no  rituals  and DEFINITELY NO MEDIUMS   



now   there are rules here that apply .  

rule 1.   demons must obey a command issued in the Lords Name and guardian angels can enforce this command but only if the done while in fellowship utilizing the enabling power of the Holy Spirit. 
rule 2.   Free will is the issue  . ..  if  the person you have exorcised  chooses to be repossessed    there is nothing you can do about it.   Also  if the house you have dispossessed  is inhabited by people who are doing activities that draw demons   (drug use, occult activities etc etc . )  the  building may become haunted again 
rule 3.   Demons  can  petition against you if you become to much of a thorn in their side  and  if you have alot of sin in your life  so don't go making it a habit  of  exorcising  buildings or people for fun.  Stay out of their radar.    

 I may  edit  add and change  sections of this post  in the future to apply to experiences I have had or will have and as I work further on the subject.      

If  you do not feel safe exorcising your home  yet still want it done  find someone with alot of doctrine under their belt.    Preachers,  Seminary professors,   Theologians .    Don't seek help from a medium  or a psychic.  

You can go to one of these paranormal  investigation teams throughout the country to confirm or investigate your  house.  I  think what they are doing is very good   it  is helping to dilute the effect  and it is providing data for the study of fallen angels and  they are willing to risk their lives so  by all means  take advantage.  But take their advice with a grain of salt  they  are researchers trying to understand spiritual phenomena not  spiritual men who want to free you of the evil influence.      



Also   if you wish to keep prying demon eyes from your house and  keep demons from the premises. The very best thing is the reading of the bible out loud.    Psalms is very good  Read allowed  your devotional from Psalms  when you  do it . . . Reading of Doctrine  is very annoying to demons.  It is like hearing a lecture from a parent about what you did bad after you did it  and they told you not to. .   It is also like nails on a chalkboard to them.    Also almost as an afterthought and I now realize that it should have been mentioned first or  relatively early.  A christian believer in the Lord Jesus Christ  CANNOT  be demon possessed  they can be  demon influenced but  not possessed.    



for doctrinal references please see the works by John Calvin, Louis Sperry Chaffer, R.B. Theme Jr. http://www.berachah.org/  , Henry A Ironside, Clarance Larkin, Donald Barnhouse and I am not saying you have to believe everything they say just read (if you are interested) and make up your own mind thats free will and what makes you human.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Scripture, Canon, Word . . . .λόγος,

Ἐν ἀρχῇ ἦν ὁ λόγος,   The hinging phrase of the bible.  The key to  truth and success in your christian life.    It is John 1:1  in the original Konia Greek  it is pronounced  En archai an ho Logos .    I like Dr. Theme's translation  "In the beginning which was not the beginning there eternally existed  the Word.    Now scholars will tell you  and its is a proven fact that when the word "λόγος,"  or Word  is capitalized  it means our Lord Jesus Christ.    So Logos  and Jesus Christ  is synonymous  this key  phrase  cracks open a lot of doctrines to our understanding .     First that the Deity of Christ eternally existed as a member of the Triune Godhead  back before the creation of everything..  Second  that the bible that we call scripture  is the Word  and  the mind of Christ  or  the Word of Christ.  Why is this the key to success in your spiritual life.   Well   lets analyze   . . does it say   "There existed dance?  . . . .no . . . how about "There existed looking down your nose at people?"    no    hey how about  "There existed  an ecstatic experience?     nope  . . . it says  "there eternally existed the WORD.     The scripture  or  The author of scripture. 
 
 Yet  in this world  we live  I see and walk  amongst so many that swear  they LOVE JESUS   and yet  spend no time learning  doctrine   no time caring about his words   no time  in bible study.   They dance and sing and  raise their hands in the air  and  work up a real good  emotional  "Spiritual"  experience.    
 
    You know  I was once  all messed up  in the occult. Do you know what they did  oh  its  rich . .  all the sabbats  all the rituals  all the devils masses   the main focus  was dancing  and singing and working up a real good  emotional   experience. . . . .    and  it was totally  evil . . . . I have seen  it first hand and I swear to you today  that anything the unbeliever  can do   IS NOT  SPIRITUAL!      anything you can copy with drugs  or devices  or  with chanting  or singing or dancing  or sex  or  smoke    is not spiritual   any idiot can do those things and get a great big glowing feeling.        
 
 
 Where am i going with this. . . . it is simple   If you Love Jesus   you Love his WORD.   even and especially when it makes you  think or touches on your  "Issues".    You love your parents  even  and especially when they reprove and correct you   (or you should unless you are an idiot)  because you know that they are doing this  because they love you and want you to learn.    The principle is the same.     God wants us to learn  and he has provided us with all the growing up lectures we need  in his scripture.    It is your sword and your shield  and every piece of armor you could possibly need to face the world and all its problems.  
 
 
   There are more then 7000 promises  in the bible. .   Isaiah 41:10,  Romans 8:28,  1st Peter 5:7  Psalm 104.   there are limitless  promises  like the one given to Abraham . .  I am your Shield and your Increasing Great Reward.     and there is  a mountain of information on how to live a life  wisely   not just  self righteously   not  fake  not   walking around with your head in the clouds  pretending to be holy .  But real  pragmatic practical  wisdom  so you can put one foot in front of the other  instead of stumbling  every chance you get.  
 
 
Am I saying  I am better then you because I know this . .. .  NO   because as anyone will tell you  I have alot to learn and there's many times when life  knocks me on my  rear end.    But I know where to look!!!! And  I wish to share because  I love you.       Love God . . . Love God's Word!!!    Be  wise   don't just fake it!
 
Because when you fake it . . . lets be honest   you are only fooling yourself  everyone else knows you are phony!    
 
for doctrinal references please see the works by John Calvin, Louis Sperry Chaffer, R.B. Theme Jr.  http://www.berachah.org/  , Henry A Ironside, Clarance Larkin, Donald Barnhouse and I am not saying you have to believe everything they say just read (if you are interested) and make up your own mind thats free will and what makes you human.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Chivalry is not Dead

Chivalry is not dead. Chivalry is an idea moreover an ideal and an ideal cannot die. At the time when knighthood and chivalry was at its height great men with self discipline and honor walked the earth.   There have been many such times. .  Times when  great nations were peopled with great individuals who worked toward ideals and served others more then self.    The time of knights was a time when British men of genius were working to translate the bible into the language of the day  from the Latin.  It was not a perfect process but it was a very good goal.   Men and women were being taught doctrine basic doctrines yes but doctrine nonetheless  and they were finding happiness and contentment  and freedom  even within the feudal system which was itself not a perfect process. .     Later  on  great men and women  fought that system  for the ideals of freedom   great thinkers  great warriors   great  individuals with  doctrine and self discipline. The American revolution was a pivotal point in history when such greatness changed the world.   Later still  in world war  II  when evil and its seduction of great power  were threatening to swallow the lands in darkness. Great men  and women of self discipline, doctrine, and honor  rode forth to serve,  to give their lives so that others may live.   

Chivalry is not dead.  I hold it in my heart as an ideal.   I  am not one of these great men. . . not yet.  But!  the path is clear    courage.  self discipline   doctrine   honor  virtue  service. . .   these are the tenants that make ordinary men  into knights. . .  into greatness.     Love  of  something more then self.   Any man can join their ranks   no matter what life he has led before.   Have the self discipline  to learn the doctrine to build within the honor and virtue  to choose to serve  and gain greater courage.     Evil hates such self discipline. . .  it works against it  so subtly  with  whispers . . .with enticements against the longings of your lusts.  With those around you always suggesting the easy way out .     


Chivalry is not without its draw backs .   It does not mean  celibacy  which is a comfort  hehe  but it does mean often doing the right thing for the right reasons  when everyone around you would advice against it. It does mean being singled out amongst men  apart  not better not lesser  but different and there are those who will take advantage  of your kindness and service. . .   This perhaps is the hardest thing for me  personally to bare.   The hardest road I have ever taken  has been with bitterness at my back .  Bitterness at being used and at others who have abused my goodness  and taken advantage of my service.    Learning to love impersonally  even those who have  hurt me so. . . .  that  will be the true test of  what I have learned. . .  if anything.    To forgive and move forward . . .  it is the ideal.   


Will I one day don shiny armor  and ride a charger into battle against darkness. . . .   Those days have long since passed.     Today we have better armor forged from the promises in the Word and I think they will serve me much more then the finest steel.  Its a long road involving  physical and mental fitness and training,  emotional toughness, spiritual maturing.   One can assume long hours of exercise and study is a given.  And the rewards  here in the temporal realm?     Not much good,  ridicule, oath breakers, users, manipulators, pettiness.   But  in the eternal realm?  Imagine going into eternity with the wisdom and spiritual armor that such a path might bestow.  And  eventually here in our mortal time those closest to you,  those who know you best and love you most will love you more for they will be blessed by association with you in your growth and they will respect you for the individual you have become.     Well we all hope so anyway.    If they are not all caught up with their own pettiness and jealousy.  I should hope not  

  Chivalry is Grace in action.    Forbearance,  long suffering,   love, charity,   it is doing the right thing for the right reason no matter what the cost.     I am well pleased that it cannot die.  It is all the good things that we as humans can strive to achieve in ourselves.    




for doctrinal referances please see the works by John Calvin, Louis Sperry Chaffer, R.B. Theme Jr. http://www.berachah.org/, Henry A Ironside, Clarance Larkin, Donald Barnhouse.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Knowledge is Power. . . and sometimes a pain in the ass.

Did you ever know things. ..  lots of things.  Lots of things about lots of things  but were unable to tell anyone.  I'm not talking about a secret here.  Anyone can put the pieces together themselves and in truth anyone can find the pieces if they were willing to look.  And there is the rub. People don't always want to know things.   "It's too deep" or "You think to much"  or my personal favorite "That stuff is for 'Those People'"     Who are "Those People"  and what does that mean exactly.  Is it a bad thing?   Am I a bad person because I want to know?   There is no intent here to shove it down any ones throat  just a curiosity and a desire to express what I have seen, learned and understood. Which is why I like this blog thing because I am not holding a gun to your head telling you to read on.   And then theres the other rub some things knowable cannot be expressed  because we  aren't the only ones reading.    VAGUE !!!! I know MYSTERIOUS!!! possibly . ..  but true. There is another sentient creation known to man.  The angelic creation both fallen and elect and  believe it or not   both sides love the Internet  its like seeing the conflict they are fighting in real time and its fascinating.  We are fascinating to them  as  they are to us.    The pieces separate  are neither vague nor mysterious   nor would the complete picture be  once it is in fact complete  but  getting from pieces to complete work . . . . . hmmm  Dangerous    I am not certain the fallen  want us to put all the pieces together  which is why I cannot find any completed works on the matter.   Lots of good work Clarence Larkin has hit on some very important points but it wasn't his focus.   Yet if more people had more pieces  they could see trends.   Trends that pop out of the front page  out of the nightly news and out of the radio.  They would see the bigger picture and the greater conflict.   But there we get back to the first problem . . . People don't want to know.    its too deep . . . I think to much . . .  that stuff is for "Those People". Fear  Ignorance,  it keeps us chained downed   keeps us in the system.   I am not asking people to go running out for a copy of angelology 101.   I am saying MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS!!!  YOU ARE NOT CATTLE!!!  STOP ACTING LIKE YOU ARE.      Broaden your scope. Look beyond the everyday and see into the truth of things.    From the smallest ant to the largest whale  all things have truth all things have a logical purpose.  We take things at face value and never look deeper.  It's easier sure. . .but all things evil seem that way that's the enticement,  the dull to your senses  if you bite at this lie we will feed you a bigger one  and if that doesn't work we will change it to make it more palatable.  
   
 Yet in the search for truth  many  have gone from one extreme to the other,  jumping to condemn,  or going on childish tirades.   I must admit  I am very ashamed to call myself a christian and a conservative  with all the knee jerk  asinine  worthless  ignorant fools running around  making noise and trying to  make everyone afraid  of everything.    There is no truth in that.  Turning every possible event into a war between left and right,  making everything  a big dramatic affair when it should be a logical rational debate.    I do not support  this behavior   the children and fools who are  shoving their wrong!  opinions down the throats of the American people and holding hostage the establishments and principles for which this country stands.    It is wrong  and just as evil as the men and women they are trying to vilify.     And in the bigger picture,  the greater conflict ,are those who are watching. . . giddy,  as they see us tearing ourselves apart instead of finding the right way to do things .   No one on either side is the least bit concerned about Freedom,  Free Will,  Privacy,  or doing the right thing for the right reason.   It's all about "keeping our promise" or "Stopping them at all costs!"  and anyone with half a brain knows its all just a pile of very smelly garbage..  Protecting our freedom, free will and privacy are more important than any of the silly little petty humanistic issues we see passing through the halls of power these days. .   What good is living a life of plenty  (food,shelter, health,)  if you have no freedom to succeed or fail on your own and make your own choices.   cattle...   worse  factory farm cattle  is what we are choosing to become.  I'd gladly choose famine and disease over slavery.  Famines pass  Diseases can be cured, and death?  what of death?   When you have given up all your freedom to fail you will also give up your freedom to succeed and you will come to wish for death as a release from the drudgery.  No human spirit can thrive while chained this fundamental  human characteristic must be understood.   This understanding is the hallmark of Patrick Henry's famous quote "Give me liberty or give me death."





 I am not motivated to write this because the worst could happen  . ..  so what if the worst happens God has a plan for it so why be afraid of it.  It may mean war or death or famine or climate change. So what. In the end we will be right back where we started eventually. History has proven this out.  I am motivated to write  because I hate seeing my enemy giddy  and hatching plans  when they should be frustrated and retreating.  . .   frustrated and retreating  for them  is a good thing.  And because it means more people get to have more freedom and be able to make more of their own problems with their own freedom instead of having problems forced upon them through slavery.  



for doctrinal references please see the works by John Calvin, Louis Sperry Chaffer, R.B. Theme Jr. http://www.berachah.org/ , Henry A Ironside, Clarance Larkin, Donald Barnhouse  and I am not saying you have to believe everything they say  just read (if you are interested)  and make up your own mind thats free will  and what makes you human.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Vanity vs Grace

For the longest time I wore black.  Black shirt, pants, shoes,  to the nines all black.   The real reason I wore it well  I look good in black and everyone says I don't look right in bright colors.  But the reason I wore it  was to keep people out.   Stay out  stay back keep away,  I'll be honest with you  I love you all but you scare me.   All your emotions and your tensions and your issues and your drama.  I am a naturally empathic person and  I get to not only carry around all my baggage but when I am around others I have to pick up theirs and carry it around too. Let me tell you.  its rough,  all those secrets you think your hiding,  you aren't its all out there for anyone who can pick up on your body language.  So  wear black  keep you back  I don't  have to share in your issues "got me a nice little wall here and you are out there YAY"   Its a defence mechanism sure and it works. . . albeit in a dysfunctional way.  There is a better way, and I am thankful to Dr. Chaffer and Dr. Theme for enlightening me on this way.  Grace. . .  grace is loving people and giving them privacy.    Grace is impersonal love for all mankind.   Grace means you love them not based on who and what they are  but on who and what you are.  And I don't mean in any arrogant way.  You love them because they are human and you can accept their flaws because you have flaws and should not judge.  Grace and humility go hand and hand.  None of us deserve to be alive or to have the wonderful gifts we have yet we do.  Why?   Because God loves us even when we are idiots and choose our own way and forget where we came from or how we got here.  Grace!   

   So I purchased clothes today! Yes I bought black pants.  They are work pants and I wanted a durable color. Plus hey  I still have a lot of black clothes so they match.  But!!!!!  I got white socks    why. . .  why. .. . because they looked comfy!   From now on  I am gonna get clothes that make me feel good and leave looks to people who care.. ..  I'll tell you a secret . . .  I really like flannel!  Its so comfy!!  




for doctrinal references please see the works by John Calvin, Louis Sperry Chaffer, R.B. Theme Jr. http://www.berachah.org/, Henry A Ironside, Clarance Larkin, Donald Barnhouse.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

The Edge of Tomarrow

Have you ever stared into your own soul? Have you ever looked deep into your life your doings your sayings your thinking's and analyzed them for the truth of who you are and who you want to be? For months I have. . . I have thought so hard it made my head hurt. . . who am I if there is a purpose for me what is it and how do I begin to take that path. . . I have poured over theology textbooks and the writings of great men. . . . I have found a great deal of knowledge and it is for certain that my feet are set upon the path without having actually realised it. But to continue along that path. . . One must be changed as a part of the journey. . . We have to grow to mature to give up old habits bad habits that we know are bad that we know are not for our own good. It isn't easy. . . To change your priorities to make that dedication first in your life and everything else second. . . To love Christ the Logos is to love his word for Christ is called in the Greek Logos which means Word. So the first step in the path is bible study and it must be a priority. The funny part of the process is I see the changes I need to make to go further and they are easy and yet it takes discipline and organization and HAHAHA I wasn't blessed with an abundance of those gifts so I sit here deciding do I move forward forsaking those things which are behind, or do keep falling into the trap of the same old person with the same old routine? The edge of tomorrow with the promise of enlightenment and truth or more of the same. The choice seems so easy and so rewarding. I know that any things I choose to give up are better left given up the small petty cheap things that have no real value, and the gain is monumental. Better relationship with my family and acquaintances, enlightenment, patience, grace.

So how to begin. . . I think like a tree these changes must happen slow I must grow into them so that it is not a sacrifice to give such things up. I feel this is the most pragmatic and honest approach. Being brutally honest with ones self is important when you cut through all the rationalizations and total crap that you feed yourself to allow the same old same old. After it is all said and done that life is hollow and void of virtue and brings no warmth or comfort.


On to tomorrow friends and all the promise it holds!


for doctrinal referances please see the works by John Calvin, Louis Sperry Chaffer, R.B. Theme Jr. http://www.berachah.org/, Henry A Ironside, Clarance Larkin, Donald Barnhouse.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

The Wisdom of Trees

I have in my yard a tree blown down by a powerful west wind during a thunderstorm. It is a terribly sad thing to see a tree in such a state. Trees are the eldest, the long sufferers. They see decades, centuries. In Israel there are olive trees that have been known to have existed since before Christ. Thousands of years and they can teach us so much about wisdom. They are God's silent servants. They teach many doctrines found in the bible, long suffering, patience, grace. They go on day after day, year after year exerting very little effort on their surroundingss yet taking a great deal of punishment from it. They do things slow as we should taking time to make changes instead of rushing head long into one change after another searching for happiness and finding only fleeting pleasures. Happiness is something you build like layers of bark, it cannot be found in a tryst with a lover, or the high of a narcotic. We would be wise to listen to the trees and work from within to build the layers of happiness that comfort and indeed even protect against the trials and sufferings that are so much apart of our surroundings.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Between Darkness and Light

Between darkness and light there is shadow. Neither dark nor light. A very apt comparison for an immortal soul trapped within a mortal body. We who dwell for a glimpse of time then move on into eternity trapped between death and what lies beyond. I for one am a christian and believe that heaven lies beyond and an eternal purpose further beyond.

There are many reasons for our existence and many who ponder them. One reason often overlooked is that we exist for this short mortal time to grow, learn, experience, and take in knowledge, wisdom, and understanding of things small. Then when we move on into the next existence we might take our knowledge of things small and use it as a musician might use his repertoire in the things that are much greater.

I love light, but I also love darkness and the experiences between range from frightening to breathtaking. I hope in this blog to share in a journey along the edge of shadow and all the complexities that entails. A journey of discovery and understanding, of perception and truth, from past to future, and from darkness to light and all the shadows in between.

There is more to life then merely to exist and every single moment there is an opportunity to capture an understanding of something smaller and larger . If you only take the time to see and to watch and to understand.